i haven't really weighted myself specially because my scale is not digital or anything so not very trustworthy. but maybe i lost 5lbs. just guessing.
drops
sandwich light whole wheat bread, turkey
crystal light
light popcorn
jello
turkey
apple
how i'm feeling:
my realization is that this might never quite work out the way its suppose to. the main rule about succeeding for anything is support, and i feel like i don't have any at all. "why you eating that i saw u eating all day?" i swear my mom would be so happy if i was anorexic and bulimic. she's a really good person don't take me wrong, just me being like this is not what she had imagined in life i guess. and "i don't understand why you cant just eat normal and exercise" from other people also piss me off, if it was that simple i wouldn't be like this. so, it just makes me feel like i'm the moron because its so simple! ugh i have eaten healthy and done kickbox for months at a time and not lost anything. i don't need to explain anything to anybody, its just frustrating. just needed to babble for a bit.. i might go drink as if it makes it better ha
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