day 8

well last night i did have a few drinks which im horrified to find out each had about 200+ calories each so i screwed up big time! i had 3 smirnoff ices i seriously didn't think it was that bad but damn :[

what i ate:
drops
light bread with turkey
quaker rice crisps cheddar 2 serving which is about 140 cals together
light bread with small lean meat patty n a slice of turkey
orange

how i'm feeling:
not bad im disappointed i messed up that bad with the drinks, i'm doing ok enough with food but keeping in these 500 cal with the drinks isn't happening, so that needs to stop too even thou i dont really drink, it just so happened i drank twice this week and it was very caloric bleh.
i'm been arguing a lot with my mom, been very stressed over life lately, its been tough. i do know i need to focus my attention on other thing because my emotions do get to me and food deff is there for the comfort. i really want to say i'm ok with myself looking like this, even thou i think i'm beautiful and got curves and everything, just wish they were in smaller portions..
once i move into our new place i will start to make video posts on youtube, maybe knowing that its online and somebody might actually see it, it'll encourage me to see the progress.